Last night was the beautiful blood moon lunar eclipse. My neighbors all walked down to the beach and sat in the moonlight, drinking wine enjoying the beauty of the eclipse. I noticed all (but me) were couples. Don't get me wrong, I had a good time, but I was the only single there. When we parted ways, as they all walked home I could hear all the couples laughing, talking about the evening. My walk was in silence. These are the parts of my new life I never can get used to. No mater how much fun I have when I go out, the drive or walk home is lonely and quiet. The quiet can be deafening. Coming home from a play or movie...no one to talk to about the evening. Not horrible, just new (if you call 5 years new).
A friend mentioned to me that she found out a guy I met earlier in the summer was indeed single. I felt like I had practically thrown myself at him, but no response. I did a little "cyber snooping" and discovered where he lives. Now what? Drive by his house like I did when I was 16? My luck if I did that he'd call the cops. My next post might be looking for donations for bail money. (haha)
I really enjoy reading your blog. Your thoughts are so reflective of so many of us and I enjoy how you can add a sense of humor in with the pain. Hugs
ReplyDeleteFor me coming home from a play or movie with no one to talk about it is better than having someone to talk to but they had no interest in talking.
ReplyDeletehow are you doing now? I still cannot stop thinking of mine who dumped me because his youngest and fairest"daughter ( 40 ) wanted him to keep on grieving for his late wife ( 5 years gone and unfortunately 5 years with dementia before that ) I keep thinking I don't want to go on, I miss him so much.
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